apt-get's journal

Talking with a close friend.

In the dream's context, I could program quite well. I used to write scripts at first on Slack, then moved to this alternate service with a much cleaner API for coding (Meeseeps or something?). I had the feeling I could actually alter the world while doing it, but it was always very dreamy, so I was never quite sure if it was the case or not. Regardless, I had built an online RPG with it, although that was apparently a long time ago .

Anyway, I was talking with this friend about depression and the feeling of having achieved something with your life. He kept switching interests in the hope of finding something that sticks, but to no avail. I didn't want to lose him, but had nothing to say to his problems.

Exams: they're over. I'm talking about the chat system with an acquaintance. He likes it. Don't remember clearly what we talked about, but it was more cheerful than other discussions within this dream.

I was sitting on some stairs between two levels of the school building. I finally felt relieved from the stress of studying and related matters. An acquaintance sees me and starts chatting. We become a little closer.

His best friend had killed himself recently; I was unaware. I don't know what to say, but he seemed quite at peace with it. A friend I hadn't seen since middle school joins us. We idly chat the time away.

I walk upstairs; it's a café. I see my cousin drinking alone, which is unusual, as he doesn't drink in real life. He seemed a little out of it and vulnerable, so I join him and order a cake. Another childhood acquaintance a table over gets annoyed over my choice of pastry: she buys a different, more refined one. Immediately after, she also gets a "sinister-looking cake" for the rest of the café.

"Why are you satisfied with what you have?" was the last thing she said before I woke up.

What a gloomy dream. I guess it's the stress of exams?