apt-get's journal

Blinding visions of the kitchen light.

Awake, 1-or-2AM. Ruined sleep. Broken circadian rhythm. "Naps" lasting 4 or 5 hours, and that bulb nagging me with its irritating brightness. Not that my eyes weren't already irritated from the almost 24/7 LCD use, anyway. Kitchen door slightly open, just enough to let the beam of light hit me square in the face but not enough to lit up my room, whose lamps are all dead. Gotta catch up, gotta finish what I've left stagnating to the bottom, all the coursework, all the lectures which have puddled up into a giant messy sludge that I have to clean up.

Another 24-hour assignment marathon. At least I only had to code monkey for this one. Java is a trashheap. (Have I already said that before?)

Had a nice talk with my dad about what I should do after my diploma. He wants me to either keep on with my studies or look for a research/self-employment opportunity -- but no going on a payroll, or I'll be ensnared and find myself at 40 doing the same thing over and over again, complacent. I agree with him. I'm still not sure about the way to go, though: I can barely imagine what I'd wanna do once I'm employable. Do I even -want- to be employable? Waking up at 8 every day sounds miserable.

All of these thoughts have pumped me up a bit. I'll keep up with math and haskell tomorrow.

Today's tunes: Cycheouts Ghost - Nodal Point, thirty minutes of synth and footwork goodness from the kings of Japanese Nerdcore Techno (not to be confused with the rap genre). They've become a fascination of mine lately. Might write more about it.